Showing posts with label ART. Show all posts
Showing posts with label ART. Show all posts

9.07.2011

Welcome Home

Pulling into the driveway, I glanced up. The dark curtains were drawn. He was here. And earlier than expected.

No sooner had I parked the car, I was bounding up the front steps to the heavy mahogany door. There was a small note taped there. “Quiet,” it read. I had already made too much noise. Shameful, I thought, though the promise of what was to come only increased the now pulsing between my thighs.

I paused to catch my breath, to focus. Anticipation in the form of glistening beads of sweat gathered on my temples. My nipples stimulated instantly by the movement of my satin camisole.

I slid my key into the lock, quietly slipping inside, easing the door shut again and locking us both in for the evening. I felt every rise and fall of my blouse. The house was cold but I already knew the warmth of the whips lashings would soon feel like noonday sunlight upon my skin; burning hotter as my flesh methodically reddened, lulling me into a dreamy state of heavenly submission.

The last golden light from a setting sun, slipped in from slits and edges of the draperies, softly illuminating the otherwise darkly staged room. He must have had the floors polished, the faint smell of wax reaching up to touch my nose.

In front of me, on the old oak table there was a small wooden box dark etchings covered the lid. It was my wooden box, kept away from me until moments such as these. Focusing on it, I smiled widely for a brief moment before scanning over the evening’s chosen attire.

Next to the box, lay a crucifix of tarnished gold; an aged bible whose pages frayed at the end and undoubtedly will waft musty when opened. Next to it, there were blood red rosary beads and a hairpin made of pearl. A dull gray woolen jacket and skirt were draped over a chair to my right. The fabric promised fitted, uncomfortable resignation. On the seat, there were black stockings I knew to be as soft as lambskin, soon to be shredded as the others before, and my corset of blue constraining movement further. His impeccable taste delivered no finer vision of bodily worship.

My heart now steady, I took to slipping off my shoes, placing them softly on the table. A door shut in the back of the house, startling me. The smell incense began to make its way out of the hallway; a soft mist indicating he was aware of my arrival, my presence required in a timely manner. We indeed had a lot of catching up to do.

Careful not to make a sound, I took off my business suit and placed it on the chair with my purse and keys. I eased into the imported silk stockings, my hair pulled back into a bun, carefully securing each clasp of the restrictive corset. I took my time getting dressed; smoothing out the rough fabric of the suit with my hands as the moments ticked slowly by. Every tiny detail attended to, as it would be minutely scrutinized.

One little peak before my affirmation began. Carefully, I lifted the boxes lid. A diamond studded collar twinkled against black velvet lining. My heart picked up it’s pace again. He had taken it with him on the business trip. I raised the lid and released, letting it slam shut.

I wrapped the beads loosely around my right hand and slipped back into my heels.

I grabbed the box and tucked it under my arm. I picked up the book, the cross on top.

“Hail Mary, full of grace. Our Lord is with thee. Blessed art thou among women,” I whispered.

With long purposeful steps, I strode to the location of the closed door. My feet heavy, my heels thumping hard on the wooden floors echoing throughout the house, sure to reach his ears. I would suffer at his hands for having broken the rules. I would suffer at his hands for the redemption of my soul. My long awaited confession would be first; for whilst he was away, I committed the most lecherous of sins; the lascivious hallmark of an unrestrained predator, hunting in the night her targeted prey.

Welcome home, my love.


10.11.2010

belly cast

Every once and awhile I get the pleasure of casting the belly of a pregnant woman to help preserve that memory for them. One day soon I will be able to do this far more than I get to currently.
Until then, here is Krystal's finished piece of which I am very proud.

If you reside in the Orlando area (or close to it), I can be contacted here for more information:
jules.blank@gmail.com

9.28.2010

the stars. they ridicule me.

An appointment with the devil at the crossroads.
Soft glow of the moon illuminating my exhaustion exhaled. Shards of cruel intention scattered at my feet, flicker.
He slides up behind me, his hands moving slowly over my hips. I quickly forget the rage, lulled. My need for explanation, dissipates.
Time ceases. The air dares not move.
Eyelids heavy with the nefarious honey on his lips; senses multiplied with every liquid gold suggestion that sweetly creeps down my neck.
Overwhelming repulsion stimulates and my need to be touched, deepens. He cradles my reasoning. Laughs at my projected weakness.
Clouds move in with the beating of wings. The sky turning black as crows gather amongst the trees to bear witness.
“Careful, little girl,” he whispers as a hand moves to my throat.
Still. Silent. His. Again.

“Your penmanship is stunning,” he sighs as hasty apologies scrawled on a napkin, fall from my fingertips.
Discourse melts into the cold, sordid pavement. Pure foolishness welcomes fortune's delivery.
My back against his chest, his hands move first to caress, massage.
His nails begin to dig, and rip. My flesh ignites, climax arrested as delicate strings of pain dance.
Heart beats force air from my lungs. His malicious laughter mocking obstinate desire.
Damn you. Damn me.

Pretension crumbling before him, I am slowly released.
He walks around to face me, bound lesson plan open in his hands.
Red marks and slashes bring me to quiet shame.
Comments in the margins mimic chastity; overt deceit teases with barbed tongue.
I couldn’t remember being present for half the instructions. Absence a defense moth ridden and stale.
A wicked smile spread across his face. He wasn’t buying the innocence. And he was right not to.
Oblivious nature to justify happenstance that is, yet is not. Hypocrisy, a sweet poison we share.
Down on my knees. Wrists again bound. Head hung, I seek reticent absolution.
As I look up into his eyes, he mouthes the words “repent” and tears of sorrow roll down my icy cheeks.
I cannot.

The bright lights of a city on fire. Demons rise like smoke, as I watch it all burn to the ground.
A noose loosely placed around my neck. He makes his exit and once again, I am alone.

The stars.
They ridicule me.

9.03.2010

segment of an unfinished story

Morning.

A bubble bath sounded nice. It was sunny outside, golden. I opened all the windows and put some John Coltrane on the stereo. The house lit up and breathed in.
Taking a bath is an art form.
The bathroom really must be exquisitely clean. All counter items must be hidden in the cabinets. Basin wiped and dried. Mirror sparkling. Towel neatly folded and placed nearby. A leave-in conditioner for your hair and 10-minute mask for your face applied before immersion. The water has to be incredibly hot. It should be hard to get in it at first and sting if you move too much. It should cause you to start sweating and turn your skin a bright shade of red. You have to soak, an additional half an hour after taking the mask off, if only to masturbate once. Maybe even twice.
And music. Sweet, fat, low jazz sounds.
I slid a foot into the water and started to lower myself in.

Yesterday morning, I had sliced a half of grapefruit and made him a toasted bagel, with coffee. He entered in a floaty sort of way, gliding up to me to kiss the back of my neck.
“Why did you leave last night, they were for you”, he said.
“You can’t be serious, “ I replied, “she was barely legal and her fingernail polish mauve," speaking of the brunette he had to have picked up in some cheesy literary book club that he attended in order to lull the Oprah fans into his Marquis de Sade realm. Librarians, wicked fun.
“It’s the first of July, Josie, your letter is on the bar," he said.
“Samantha,” I replied.
“On the bar, Josie.” He hadn’t called me by my birth name once in all the time I had known him.
The paper was a rough linen, his seal embellished it. I knew the inside would hold my instructions. My counter terms I had an hour to come up with and based upon last night’s mild irritation, I had already concocted an idea in my head. Twice a year we played these games of ours. We had been playing them together for the last thirteen.

My bath wasn’t enjoyable. I could only think of the computer screen I couldn’t watch and the email I wasn’t able to check. He had said noon and noon it would be less some natural disaster tore him from the task, and even then, I am sure he had a backup plan.
When it came, it was not at all what I had imagined it would be.


TO: sam.arma@edi.com
SUBJECT: spiders too

I do not like the new assignment. Mexico is hot. Remember when our air conditioning unit blew up that summer in Austin? The sweat poured from our bodies onto the sheets.
My hotel windows are large. I am on the second floor. There is a balcony with one wooden chair and a table put together with scraps of wood. No bars. The structure itself is suspect. I might fall through and land in the vegetable cart downstairs. You should paint that picture with carrots sticking out of my ass.
You popped the tires on my bicycle. We should have never burned the confessional booth. How will you repent your sins now? Saboteur.
I adore your tricks.
I miss the way your hair smells.

Pan


Bastard. I wrote an email back, erased it, wrote it again, changed its tone, pitch, style added a joke, added a quote, axed it in half, deleted all but one line, wasted another hour thinking about it and then decided to start working. He could wait. I had to accomplish something today.
He was right, we shouldn’t have burned the confessional booth. At the time it seemed like the next logical thing to do. It had taken so long to build. My sins would just have to build up for the next month, all piled on top of each other, writhing, trying to dominate the slippery pile of filth.
I called down the street to make a hair appointment.
I answered a couple of emails and wrote out some notes.
I enjoyed tea perched upon my windowsill; staring out into traffic wondering what the exterminators death count had reached.
I don’t know why I sent him away, we hadn't been apart for more than a few hours since the day we met. I needed to clear my head, I guess. It was feeling pretty foggy as of late. Maybe the days of the unrestrained had grown uncool. Maybe I had grown uncool. I knew I needed him out of the picture in order to make a decision; his presence slanted everything I thought or felt.
Yes, sending him away was the best thing I could have ever done.

“I have decided," I said.
“Tell me,” he replied.
“You have to go to Mexico. You have 12 hours to pack and be at the airport. I have already booked your flight,” handing him the printed tickets I said, “you can come home in 30 days. Write we will, but this time, from a distance of approximately 1000 miles. I am going to the gym.” I walked out of the apartment with my bag and bottle of water. He'd be gone before I returned.